Week 6 update: Or happy birthday to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today's my birthday, today's my birthday, TODAY'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!  Also, I lost .8 of a pound, which is almost a pound, so HOORAY!!! 

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Sorry it's upside-down.  I'm tech-stoopiiiiid. 

This week has been tiresome.  It's the first week of summer vacation................ok it's the first couple days of summer vacation, and O.M.G. these kids are making me crazy already!  I have no idea how I'm going to survive the summer!!!  Going to plan lots of playdates, and lots of outings.  On Friday we went to the high ropes course and zipline with everyone from the hubby's shop, it was AWESOME!  It's really good exercise too.  On Saturday I had my birthday dinner (without my kids) where I drank so very much wine, which was great, and was treated like a princess by my friends.  I am so lucky in my life!  Today I spent with my girls, just hanging out.  My oldest gave me the gift of sleep, she got up with my youngest and let me sleep until 11 am!  Amazing!  So, that's this week.  Next week looks to be busy, but I'm determined to figure out physical activity with the kids home. 

Official tally of weight loss so far:  5.8 pounds. 

Smooches,
XXOO,
The Fat EOD Wife

Week 5 recap: Or: The Week that Tried to Kill Me!

Wow, what a week.  First I was sick, then I was helping the teenager cram for her Geometry final, then I got sick AGAIN.  Somehow I've managed to cut the inside of my eyelid WHILE I WAS SLEEPING.  Don't even ask me how I did that because I've got no earthly idea.  Then I was bit by some kind of bug that made my ankle swell up and turned the bite area into a perfectly triangle bruise; and while all this was happening I was volunteering every single day at the high school.  I'm tired.  So incredibly tired.  This deployment is starting to get the best of me.  It feels like if only he was home I'd be able to handle all the crap thrown my way a bit better.  So many times this week I just wanted to cry in the shower.  It's so hard when you have to keep it all together for your.....(excuse me while I go clean up dog puke..............................................................................ok I'm back) where was I?  Oh yea, keep it together for your kids when all you want to do is break down and say "no fair, I don't wanna, I can't".  So yea, I'm tired.  This week I didn't lose any weight, it's the second straight week of exactly the same weight:  203.8  Maybe muscle and fat are trading places?  Maybe I'm plateauing, maybe my body just wants to play jokes on me.  But I won't give up.  I can't, I made a promise to all of you and to me. 


Thanks for letting me vent,
XXOO,
The Fat EOD Wife

I am exhausted!

This week is a crazy week.  It was mighty ambitious of me to say I'd have time to make daily posts to you all.  There's just no way.  I'm volunteering every day at the high school, I'm spending every minute after school until bed with the girls getting last minute homework in (*eyeroll* to the teenager on that one), and there just isn't enough time in the day to do anything.  Plus, I'm pretty sure my allergies have turned into a sinus infection so I'm doubly miserable.  With that, I'm just checking in to say "hi!" and that I love you guys, and I haven't abandoned ship, I'm just stupid busy until Friday.  I will see you all Friday!

Lots of love,
The Fat EOD Wife

Week 4 update: The very bad, no good, terrible, awful news.

I didn't lose a single ounce.  I didn't gain anything, but I didn't lose anything.  In all honesty, I expected it.  I didn't work out even once this week.  It has been pitiful!  I needed to come clean to you guys and own up to it.  Not one workout.  I've been watching my food, so that's probably why I didn't have a gain, but it's just so obvious, I am NOT going to lose weight without exercise.  It just isn't an option.  So, with renewed spirit I approach the new week, and I promise you....SUPER PINKY PROMISE.......I will exercise this week, and I will mean it!!!

Also, I still haven't gotten that damn pedicure.  *sigh*

 

 

Also, I need to let you know that this week is going to be insanely busy, so my posts may be very short and sweet, but they will still be there! 

 

Thank you for reading/listening/understanding,

XXOO,

The Fat EOD Wife

Friday's Fun!

I love Fridays.  It is so great to get together (to....get....her) with everyone and hang out.  It's nice to be reminded that we are a collective unit who has each others backs.  It's wonderful to know that should I need anything when my tech is away, that they will move mountains to help me.  It's especially good for my wellbeing.  Tonight we hung out and ate pizza.  I did really well, I only ate 1.5 slices.  I didn't over indulge.  That is a HUGE victory for me!  I had a lot of fun playing games, so I didn't focus on the food.  Normally I'm the girl hovering by the snack table, but instead I was the girl in the middle of the games.  It was so much more fun that way!  I can feel my mindset shifting, not just about what I chose to eat, but about how much, under what circumstances, and for what purpose.  This is an amazing transformation that I'm going through and I couldn't be happier about it.  Have you noticed any changes in yourself?  I would love to hear about it! 

Until tomorrow,
XXOO,
The Fat EOD Wife

Thursdays are hard.

Today was not a good day.  My little was having a "sad day".  I think this deployment is getting to her.  She did a lot of crying today, which meant I did a lot of cuddling, which meant I did NOT do a lot of working out.  I did try to eat healthy as best as I could, but I would have loved some treadmill time and I didn't get it.  I'm wondering what the hell I'm going to do this summer when my littlest is home all the time.  Perhaps I need a treadmill in my house?  I really REALLY don't want to spend that kind of money.  That is frustrating, and I'm going to have to find a solution to that problem like STAT.  Other than that there was nothing new to report today.  Do you all have any suggestions?  I'd love to hear them!


Love you all,
XXOO,
The Fat EOD Wife

Wellness Wednesday, my favorite day!

Well, today is Wellness Wednesday (say it with me now wed.....nes......day), and I've come to love this day the most.  Sometimes I don't want to go to therapy.  Sometimes I want to crawl back into bed and stay there forever, but ALWAYS when I go to therapy I feel better after.  It's like the gym, I don't wanna, but I always feel better after. 

Today I talked about forgiveness.  This is something I do not know how to do.  There are many people in my life that deserve forgiveness, myself included, and I think that my inability to forgive is a contributing factor to the binge eating.  Hoping that if I can learn to forgive, I can disassociate feelings with food.  It's a process.  A long one.  Like a really, really, loooooooooooooooooooooooong one.  But we will get there right?! 

This evening I tried to do something really good for myself and ended up disappointed.  I went to the "health and wellness" fair held on base and what it really should have been called was "come look at all this crap you can buy, now please buy it" fair.  I was hoping to get information on personal training, but the gym's weren't even represented!  Some health and wellness fair. 

Also, I ate a peanut butter cookie.  I made it myself, it was delicious.  The plus here?  I only ate one!  Would be before that I would have eaten five or six.  One is a VAST improvement. 

So, that's all for today, I'm hoping to have lots and lots of lovely things for tomorrow!

Smooches,
XXOO,
The Fat EOD Wife

p.s. I seriously love you guys.  Like seriously.